Tornado

I realized today I'll never be a tornado. I can be the best me I can be, but I'll never be a tornado. I am not trying to attain tornadoism, but there are aspects of tornadoism that I would like to attain. Like hopping on something right away. A tornado only has one chance to destroy. I have but one chance to do it right the first time. Doing something right the second or third time is not good enough.

Been wanting to do this for a while. Interesting my blog starts my spiritual journey. I was trying to be more positive after seeing a psychiatrist, so I numbered the days trying to make it to a year. It's almost 7 years later. I'm an elder now. Who woulda thunk? Not me. A spiritual journey is a journey with God. I had no idea I was on a journey for the first 35 years of my life. Now I have assurance that that journey is going to "end" with Him. How comforting. "I know that you are for me" by Kari Jobe. I need to ramble occasionally. Get some of my thoughts out of my head. Want to read the bible more. We were doing so well. How to get back on track? Read a bunch on Saturday? We'll see. God give us the want to get into your Word. You alone are worthy to be praised. We want to to praise you by wanting to get to know you. Games less. Bible more. Think you can do it? No. Writing more? Think you can do it? Nah. Can I set a goal far enough away but still able to reach? Don't think so. With God's help I believe I can, but the vicious cycle make me think I'm alone. The devil taunts and accuses me. I'm imprisoned in my own life (Stand up by Fireflight). That's enough for now.