Shout to the Lord-Day 31

It's been about a months worth of posts, so I'll name this one the same as I named the first one. The song affected my day in a very odd way so it's a fitting title for the day.

Today, as I'm brushing my teeth, I think "They're going to play "Shout to the Lord" today." I'm not sure why it popped in my mind, but it did. It wasn't a big deal, until it turned out it was played instrumentally during the presentation of Pastor Don's pictures, and then played and sung by us all as the last song. Was it just a random thought earlier in the day? (I'm leaning this way.) Was it put there for a reason? I want to lean this way, but I don't know the reason. When I finally told Kim this on the way home, she didn't know what to say. I suppose I wouldn't either. As I told her this, Redeemer came on the radio. That's a beautiful song.

I commented on a fellow Michigander's blog a while back, and I checked on it and commented again a few days ago. She is a Christian as well, has children that have moved out and is living a happy life with her husband. She has had problems with shaking on her right side and had surgery to fix it. It took a while to recover, but the shaking had ceased for a year. It is back, but now her it's left side and she is facing brain surgery at the end of year. I need all of my loyal readers (Jen:)) to add Tammie to your prayers.

I saw Kung Fu Panda today with Colton, Gabrielle, Allison, Emily and Brian. They really enjoyed it as did I.

As I said, it's been a little over a month since I started this blog/experiment and it's working. My attitude has changed. I'm able to not be as cynical and sarcastic as often. Sarcasm can many times be harmless, but in some ways it is not kind. I'm able to keep some thoughts in my head and not out of my mouth as often.

I'd wanted to get with Dennis and Jennifer and have a talk with them, but Colton will be on his tournaments during the weekends now. I felt I needed to wait for the right time, and maybe it's still coming. I'd thought about some of the things I wanted to say, but wasn't sure where I go from there. I wanted to mention how I feel closer to Dennis than probably any other man alive, although I know the feeling is not mutual. Not close as in what it sounds like, but I feel we are both emotional men, both spiritual men, both intellectual men, and both very loving men. I can say the same about my brother except for the spiritual part. There is no one else I am close with. I thought he may think that's all well and good, but where do you go from there? I wanted to say I have never felt close with Jennifer, but that's to be expected. I am close with none of my sister-in-laws or brother-in-laws. I never had a friend until Kim, and I am just now learning about what friendship really is.

This all changed on Mother's Day (Day 14). That conversation I had with her that day changed the way I feel about her. I'd never appreciated her kindness until then. Sure, she was kind, but what's her motive? Does she think she's better than me? That's what a negative attitude will do to you. I understood, during those few minutes, that God was first in her life and she was happy I was coming to them for some spiritual guidance. I'm sure Jen thinks that's sweet and all and happy she had a positive affect on my life, but where do you go from there?

I pray for answers, Lord.
I pray for Your guidance.
I pray You let me know what I can do for You.

Thank You, Lord.

Amen.